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| Over-Step My FACE?! |
| 10.18.04 (9:18 pm) [edit] |
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Mondays, I tell ya... Last night I had some really terrible nose problems, but I still went to school today. I really don't remember the day. 1st and 2nd period we had a verse and poem quiz. In 3rd period I confronted my ex-friend Roje about his continuous partialism towards me. Speaking of him, I think that he doesn't realize how he is. I mean as soon as someone supposedly breaks his "heart" then he will say something like, "I'm changed. I'm sorry Katrina for treating you this and that way..." I'm tired of his crap. I really don't want him around me at all, but I have to live civily. I am just tired on general of people trying to use me. I mean it's everyone. I don't know if I can say that I have one person that I can truly call a friend, ya know, in the definition of the word. I need someone I can talk to and confide in that won't judge me or make a joke out of the things I believe in or the things that I say. I know that the whole "true friend" thing is rare. I am truly sorry if I have offended anyone in this last paragraph, but if the shoe fits wear it, and if it doesn't don't put it on. I mean I have friends, just not someone that I can really show who I am to. No one knows me, and if I have told you something about myself, then you only know the basis, the surface, the cover of the box underneath the wrapping. Some people believe that if you live in a big house and live with both of your parents that you should have a happy-go-lucky life. I remember, I think it was last Thursday, when me, Stan, and Air were playing some off version of the question game. I said, "Ask me some questions." and she said, "Oh, nothing has ever happened to you." But how would she know? So anyways back to my ex-friend Roje, I'm tired of him and of his crap (for lack of a better word). I don't need him in my life and he can go around screwing (or at least have the fantasy of screwing) Jury or PinkOne. I just hope that he soon realizes that neither one of them have his dumb behind on their mind. And, oh yeah, if Jury and SnakeEyes ever hook up...yeah... Back to my day. At lunch I had a chat with PinkOne, who is fed up with Roje as well. She reminisced on what happend during the summer. It is posted under a post entitled "Yo Stan, Check This!" Roje' tried to play her and about 3 weeks later after he declared his undying "LUV" he fell in "LUV" with Jury, who is not in "Love or LUV" with him. But anywho, after that caht was finished I went to sit with my Air. She was looking a tad lonely (in her gold-green shirt and black shirt with black shoes that had gold tips...), but I was planning on sitting with her anyways. As soon as I sat down she said, "OOO I guess your Tattoo's new English tutor..." (referring to English when I said I would tutor him. BTW she made a very rotten face when I said that...hehe) I said, "See you broke the pact, yet again!" She smurked and smiled and we moved on. A few minutes later we went upstairs and she had to make some phone calls. She never came back. After 7th period I sat outside of her classroom and she said, "Katrina." I said, "MM..hmm..." and she walked aross the traffic of the afterschool bunch and hugged and kissed me. Then she said, "I found the college I was talking about- St. Mary's" So she said, "C'mon." I followed her to the office and she showed me the brochure (which was actually the same brochure that I gave tower a few weeks ago) and said, "If I had a daughter I would want her to go there." She then went on about how beautiful the campus was and stuff like that. I then went home. Song of the Day: Azyet- Hard for me to say I'm sorry |
| The Infamous 15th Strikes Back! |
| 10.15.04 (10:58 pm) [edit] |
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As many of you know, today was supposed to be the day me, Stan, and Air were gonna go to the movies. She instructed me yesterday to call her today, but I never got around to it. I really didn't wanna go for some reason, but I had to come up to Nationott today anyways. First, I had to open a class account with the accounting office. Second, I had to meet up with Stan and Air. Third, the Senior car wash was today and since I'm treasurer, I was gonna just help set up, leave, and then come back for the money. Roje gave me a ride and when I went up there it looked like the place had been deserted. It looked so bad that I thought that the car wash was cancelled. I then looked in the cafeteria and I saw Air. She was in the teacher in service meeting so I decided not to bother her. Skip Skip...the meeting was over and she came out and up to me and said, "Oh I really appreciate the phone call." and I looked at her. I knew she was trying to find a way to get out of it anyways. She then came up to me and said, "I got things to do." and she bended down and tried to give me an air kiss. I kept moving my head back, but eventually gave in. I then went to help with the carwash which was an INCREDIBLE success! A few people showed up: UnderthePitts, Undadaequaita#1, Jury, Stan, Roje, Me, TallOne, Painge, Blackness, MeatBall, and Dominos. Carlup (Painge's mom) organized the whole thing. We got alot of donations and ended up making $179! 41833 really helped us get some business. I think we washed everyone's car in her family today :) I took pictures the whole time. After the car wash the girls had a volleyball game and I wasn't gonna go, but Jury was insistant so I decided to go so she could save face. We dropped by her house and headed for the most over-rated church school ever, JERUSALEM! They say that it's bigger than Nationott, yeah right...and the people there aren't even friendly. We (minus Tallone Painge and Jury) were in the bleachers cycing everything! It was so much fun and they won! I got a ton of pictures of them as well. After the game we all went to the most unknown outdoor mall I have ever seen. It was so organized, and so "UNTOWNRIVER!" The car trip was nice. I think that I was the only one in the car not thinking about hooking up with someone. I then came home. It was so nice. I'm very glad that Air cancelled, and that I decided to go to the game. This just proves that...Well, let's just say it like this. When you have an original plan, and you don't feel right about something, it won't happen, or maybe it will. Oh well, just follow your instinct and always pray before you go out and do something. Songs of the Day: B.I.G - Get Money, Nolia Clap (instrumental), Take Me Out- Franz Ferdinand, Teena Maire- Just Us Two |
| Ism's Stink... |
| 10.13.04 (10:35 am) [edit] |
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Last night I had a dream about an elder at Nationott's church (Tarrantula) and Haynes. It started off around 1:00 I had walked into the cafeteria and Tarrantula was talking trash about me. I mean it was so loud that he was on the other side of the room and I could still hear him. So I went up to him and tried to reason with him, but to no avail... I then decided to go to Haynes office and ask if he could help this confrontation be remedied. He sat in front of my face and said, "You are worth nothing. Everything that comes your way is your fault. You deserve everything..." and I felt like I was nothing. [i]In reality, I never liked the elder. Well, I used to, but when he was taking Air and us to CiCi's (read the May posts), he was being VERY fascist. I think from that I felt like he was exactly like any other disrespectful man from around these parts. Also, about Haynes, we have had a bad history, but it seems ok now, even though I'm still pretty wary... [/i] Later on in the dream me, Stan and Roje' were over Air's house. She was acting weird and wearing some kind of Christmas sweater. So I went to her bathroom and looked in the mirror. All of a sudden my braids were out and I had a head full of hair [For reference read blog entitled, "Personal Loss."] The thing about it was that the back of my hair was still in braids, and, as most of you black girls know, my hair was an untamable bush in the front. I remember getting water and trying my best to press it down, but nothing worked. There was (before the Air part) another part of my dream which should be classified as a nightmare. I was in my basement, which I would like to call "The dungeon." And I looked at the ground in front of my and there were 3 dead mice on the ground. I remember screaming for my mom. She said (very faintly), "Yes." and I kept getting louder and LOUDER and [b]LOUDER[/b]! She finally came downstairs and cleaned it up, ugh... |
| This is Nothing but a Picture Show |
| 10.12.04 (7:18 pm) [edit] |
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Air wasn't at school today :( So we ended up having Koopa Troopa was our homeroom teacher. So as usual, the class was enormously rowdy. 2nd period, Tower came in and started regulating. She kicked 3 people out: Blackness, Undadaequaita#1, and Ol'King Cole. She did all of this while we were in the midst of a literature quiz. So then she said, "OK! NO MORE, KOOPA! STOP THE TEST!" and I was kinda mad because I knew everything. So anyways, she eventually left and folks started discussing the answers, or at least the three that we were allowed to answer. All of a sudden, Stewbie comes into the room. He says, "The quiz will be administered at 3:30. If you're not here then you will receive a zero. Any problems?" No one answered. Even if they would have, it was a set-up to carry someone, so everyone kept their mouths shut. 3rd, 4th, and 5th period were all "Run of the Mill." Lunch came and I was in the office since Air wasn't there. 6th period we had yet another class meeting. I really didn't care this time because there wasn't gonna be a hot conference anyway. So after the meeting I asked Tower if I could finish the collage that I had made for the fall festival. She had given me the key to the high school office and Stan came with me. Tower came up about 20 minutes later. And I said to her, "I can't take the test today because my mother is on a schedule." and she said, "Well, I'm sorry but you should have said something to Stewbie." I said, "No, that wasn't the appropriate time because we were in a public setting." and she said, "No, you had the opportunity." So I said, "Well just fail me then because I won't be here." and she kept getting louder and so did I. And right when I was about to reach a level resembling her and Painge from yesterday, Air came walking up the steps! PERFECT TIMING! So she came in the office in a red Chinese shirt and black pants, and she said (with a glowing smile on her face), "Hi Katrina. I was thinking about you on my way to the college." My heart lit up. Then she hugged me and gave me a kiss. So I said with a smile on my face, "Really?! I thought about you all day." she said, "Aw...I was in the car and I was like, 'Oh, I'm gonna miss my time with Katrina today.'" I was beyond happy. I just felt a sense of relief, love, care, and all of the above when she entered the room. She then started talking to Tower and Stan. Tower said, "Hmmp...I gotta tell you something." and Air said, "I already know everything." so Tower still had to tell her side, and Air's face resembled, "Blahblahblah..." So then she looked at me and I quietly said, "No, I'll tell you the real story later." and she mouthed, "Ok." She then explained her trip there and back. Me and Stan then told her how much we missed her today, and how she threw the entire day off because she wasn't there. Oh, it tottally was the best part of the day! Song of the Day: Hanson - Believe Quote of the Day: "Absence from the eye makes the heart grow fonder." ::This is being edited on May 29, 2005 at 6:28pm:: Other QOTD: "After lunch when the whole day seemed to have gone to hell in a handbasket, like the sun risin above the darkenss of night came resounding the South South Eastern bellows of Sister Do Right as if to be riding in on a white horse to save the day, not to glorify her too much but it was nice to see her after the day I had had." ~LickedySplit |
| Serene Morning |
| 10.11.04 (9:31 am) [edit] |
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Lately I've been finding myself "waiting out" the weekend, and becoming excited about the thought of school. I got up at 5:30 and took a shower. I came downstairs and my mom is there. I say, "Oh yeah, I forgot it was Columbus Day." But hey, we're not off anyways. Friday we are. Ya know, Friday, "The Infamous 15th?!" I just hope that we don't have our Physics test today. I hate that class. I mean my eyes will be open and my hand may be writing, but I am asleep in that class. That is the only period of the day the I truly detest. So, maybe I can get it pushed to Wednesday. Song of the Day: Johnny Hartman - For All We Know |
| Hope and Pray For the Best |
| 10.10.04 (8:44 pm) [edit] |
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My phrase for this entire week was "Don't complain 'cause things always work out for the best." I'm trying to write this without complaining. Ray! Whay re you not coming out this friday? What a conspiracy! Man! Maybe something better will come up, because, to be quite frank, I didn't really wanna see the movie. I just wanted the "Time." So maybe we have have the "Time" somewhere else, or maybe this whole thing could be rescheduled til the 29th. But still this was gonna be the 15th, "The Infamous 15th!" Oh well, I just hope that when I break the news to them that "Pep" won't be like, "Oh well, I guess we can't do anything then." Because for some reason I can hear her saying that. Or maybe, she will say, "Maybe we can do such in such instead." Or she might say, "Well to be honest I was busy anyways." I don't know. Mondays are usually "UGh" days. But you never know. I mean it's not like I wasn't asked about at church today, and even moreso the "Infamous 15th" was brought up in conversation. So maybe she is looking forward to this as much as I am. How much do you wanna bet that she will break the news before I do. I just pray to God that he can provide a diversion that will be bigger and better than aything that we all could have expected. Thank you God for providing the way :) |
| Ray you don't say! |
| 10.10.04 (7:34 pm) [edit] |
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WHY?!!! Ray doesn't even come out to theaters until October 29th! What are we gonna do now if anything? I say we go see another movie, but do to Cee's "Only like thriller type genre's" then that ship has sailed. Maybe we could just go our to dinner and have some small talk. That would be best because in a movie theater talking is rare. My whole purpose in this is "too talk" So I guess maybe it will work out for the best. I guess I have to break the news to the trio tomarrow.. |
| SAT Madness! |
| 10.09.04 (4:46 pm) [edit] |
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I went to take my SAT's today. What I am about to tell you just proves how much of a "criminal" the S-A-T man is. First, I got to the highschool around 7:30 and traffic was tremendous. Stan was there but I didn't see him until later. So anyways, as I got out of the car I said, "Mom, pray for me." no so much for the test, but for the location I was taking the test in. I got our of the car, took a deep breath, and walked up to the school sidewalk where there were SO many people. I knew no one. So the first "non threatening" person I saw, I spoke to. She brushed me off. I was still cool. Then I ended up standing near this girl who looked just like Diane from Big Brother. I call her "Number 12." We ended up in the same room. They wouldn't even let you into the school unless you had an "approved" ID (I quoted Psalms 100 while I was in line). So it's a good thing I didn't take the test on the date I was supposed to, because I just got my id in August. I went in and I stood in the line that said, "F-JA" I saw so many ex-Nationotts that it was ridiculous. I then got approved and was directed to the classroom where I was to test. I went to the door and an African woman was outside of it in a desk checking for the registration form and the id (yet again). She smiled and said (in her accented voice) "You sit in seat number '5'." I went in and it was just like any other classroom. Some folks her regular and cool, and then there is always that "idiot" the has too be loud and ruin the serene mood. I sat there quietly and finally said something to the guy sitting a few desks away from me. Ehh... The test finally started OR at least we thought it was about to. The tester (the nice African woman) started getting into it with so many of the testees. 1st it was "Shanohoe" an ex-Nationott who I chatted with right before the test. Then it was a few other girls and 2 boys. Ehh...we ended up starting our test about an hour later, just because of the testers "disciplinary" action. The "S-A-T guy" at Nationott should be arrested for false advertisement. The SAT's are just like every other Standarized Test that we have taken since kindergarten. It is a conspiracy the classes, and the gullible people. To all of those who told me this test was hard I send a BIG SMACK out there to your faces for lying. At least I didn't see it as hard. It seemed easier since there was no science or history on it. When I first started the test my nose started running like there was no tomarrow. So for the 1st 2 sections I had a ball of tissue hanging from my nose. It miraculously dried up and I could breathe easy for the rest of the test. We finally finished the test and I went to catch up with Stan and some of the ex-nationotts. How nice.... BTW: That Nelly song "She don't know my name" with Ron Isley was stuck in my head throughout the entire TEST! Song of the Day- She don't know my name - Nelly w/ Ron Isley |
| Due to Trust |
| 10.09.04 (10:01 am) [edit] |
| "My blood congeals; I shall write no more." |
| 24 Hour Question Game |
| 10.05.04 (10:28 am) [edit] |
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Today is a very monumentous day. Not only will the infamous "Question Game" be face to face, but also it will be a 24 Hour EXTRAVAGANZA! Yesterday night me and Stanley were on the phone for a few hours playing the question game. For those of you who don't know what the question game is, it's a phone game; Whenever a 2 or 3-way call goes silent I would say, "Hey, let's play the question game." And we would go in a specifac order and ask "No-Holds-Bar" questions that the other would have to answer. It's kind of like truth or dare without the dare. But sometimes this game has gotten many of us in INCREDIBLE trouble. Actually, this only happens when Roje' is playing. But last night it was just me and Stan, THEREFORE, since last nights game was SO intriguing we decided to continue it today. One thing that I wanna say about last night is that, "No one will ever tell you the truth about themselves until they reach a level of self-acceptance." I made this up this morning, but it is so true. With everyone in my life (who has told me something personal about themselves) they were at the critical stage of self-acceptance. For many people, they don't just come out and say "it" but they will drop hints. Then I would (or my talk partner) ask them a question that pertains to their hint. They will beat around the bush and then finally talk about it, though very hesitantly. [i][::Hence the conversation with Air, entitled, "Tears in the Air."] [/i]This happend last night with our question game (to me surprisingly). Everyone wants to feel normal, but "What is normal?" Normal is being ones self and not trying to put on a front for others. Being normal is reaching a level of acceptance. Anywho, I will keep you posted on the game... Song of the Day: (strictly b/c of the question game [it was playing while on the phone last night]) I Love You- Celine Dion, and N Dey Say - Nelly Quote of the Day: "No one will ever tell you the truth about themselves until they reach a level of self-acceptance." ~ TBB |
| I Promised Myself I Would Be Positive |
| 10.04.04 (9:09 pm) [edit] |
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When your ememies try to trip you up no matter how hard you try to be civil, be positive. When folks you love turn on you just so they won't have a target on their head, be positive. When you feel like you can't posibly be a good person in the eyes of others, be positive. This year has probably been one of the best that I have ever had a National, BUT sometimes people that I have had problems with try to keep me down in every possible situation. Once you let one ounce of trust seep through your untrusting veins then you know that you have a problem. You have fallen short. You have let their old familiar ways come back to bite you in the butt. If you truly know that someone who doesn't have your best interests in mind then RUN! Because they will go back to those same ways, NEVER TRUST SOMEONE WHO IS UNTRUSTABLE! Air, on the other hand, is the person who UTTERLY BETRAYED me. Well, I can't totally blame anything on her b/c she doesn't know how I truly feel about TallOne. But GOD! Air didn't know so I won't hold her accountable, but it still isn't fair.... Positive posting will be next |
| Locked Box |
| 10.03.04 (5:05 pm) [edit] |
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The weekend has just flown by! Not saying that I wanted all the time I could get (like every other weekend), but it really has come and left. This morning I opened my locked box (the place where I kept my most precious memories, memorabilia, and writings) and I read through a journal that I have been keeping since 8th grade. What I've noticed is that after September 11th, my writings became more mature. I smiled when I noticed this. I'm almost done the book. It will be a sad moment when I place the period after the last sentence. But I've been working hard on that book, and trust me, I know that it will pay off in the near future. Last night I was on the phone 'til 1:30a.m. I was talking to Roje' about class stuff. All it took was a bug to crawl on the floor and I went to bed. Song of the Day: Hey Good Lookin' - Jimmy Buffet & Friends. Quote of the Day: "Yet another wasted post!" Thought of the Day: Should I attend the girl's ministry lock-in? |
| Sexy Legs Strikes Back v.2 |
| 10.01.04 (8:44 pm) [edit] |
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I then went to get my bag from the school office and all of a sudden, JAN herself, was standing there! The first thing I said was, "JAN!!!" and she said, in her usual Tennessee accent, "Hey!" so I then said, "I haven't seen you in like five months." and she said, "I know. You've lost alot of weight." Then I told her about chapel and Curves. We had a nice chat and it was good to see her. I hugged her and as she was leaving, I told her that I was engaged she said, "To who? Do I know this person?" I said, "It's a guy." and she said, "Really" or somthing that implied something about lesbianism. Though the engagement thing was a lie I needed something to tell her due to the lack of questions I wanted to ask her. Right before we went on the trip to the capital all of us and Undadaequaita 1 were sitting out in the lobby. He said, "Look at Katrina, showing them [b]legs[/b]." Blue One said, "Ohh and a little [b]thigh[/b] too." I was exceptionally flattered. I then went upstairs to get my flat shoes out of my locker and Underdapitts said, "Katina you look nice in heels." then he stuck his thumb up to me. And right before that Blackness told me that I did a good job in chapel, and also said that I looked nice. I couldn't help but say, "Are you being funny?" because it is so hard to take him seriously. Then we left for the trip and it was nice. Shawshank and me bonded quite well while we were at the capital. He is so kewl. Stan and I made short speeches at the juntion. They LOVED US! We then left and went to "CiCi's Pizza" [i]Here is the part that I've been patiently getting to.[/i] We pulled into CiCi's parking lot and we all jumped out of the van. Shawshank kept telling me how hungry he was and this that and the other. So we bought our tickets and went down the line. I had forgetten my tray so he handed me one. After I had gotten my food I had no where to sit. So I picked a table that wasn't a booth. The Shawshank and I somehow ended up sitting together, alone. We talked about regular stuff, ya know, our rooms, electronics, games, and then he laughed a little when I said that he should be an honorary senior... After he was done his 4 plates, I said, "Wanna go play a game?" and he said sure. So we were headed to the arcade. Stan kept UTTERLY giving me dirty looks and refused to speak with me. That's how you know you have the UTTER SEXY [b]LEGS[/b]. We went into the arcade and played a shooting game. He beat me. Then I played Crazy Taxi (while Shaw held my purse without protest) and we left. As we were walking out, Roje' and Stan were giving me very dirty and utter triffling glances. I think it made Shawshank uncomfortable. Oh well, none of the bonding was for sexual attention. I just wanna get to know him. And I'm looking for a prom date. We got back to school and Shaw and I went our separate ways. Maybe he is an FA because he kept looking at my [b]legs [/b]and would glance away when I looked at him. Hmmm... Jan and PS were the first people I saw when I came into the school. I went upstairs and changed my shoes back to my sexy heels. Jan then came upstairs and me and Stan talked with her. She said this, "Hey Tower, you know Katrina is engaged." and Tower said, "For real?" I said, "Why did you tell her? Now everybody's gonna know!" and Tower started smiling and probably got slightly offended. Jan wasn't talking about much. We had a regular conversation and she looked so nice with her hair grown out. As she was leaving Tower asked her if the engagement thing was true and I said, "Would I ever lie to you Jan?" and she said, "YEAH! You always lie to me!" and I started talking in her voice and mocking everything she would say... Oh I miss her so much sometimes... Me and Stan then went back to Air's class and talked with her since we did miss the daily hot conference. It wasn't long, but it sure was interesting. I recorded a short clip of this moment on my digital and if I ever figure it out I will let you see her in motion. So I was sitting at her seat and she said, "Get up" and I got up and she said, "How was the trip? Did you enjoy it?" and I told her about it and everything, then I was about to leave. Then she said, "Look at your fat [b]legs[/b] all out!" I then smiled. For some odd reason it didn't offend me at all. Actually, I kind of liked it. Maybe this was the very sentence that proves that Air is an FFA! It that is so then we have more in common than I would have ever guessed. If Air is truly an FA then I would fall out... :) She then said, "I don't think it's true." I said "What?" and she cut her eyes a little and said "I'll talk to you about it later." and I said, "Oh! well, I'll talk to you about it later." It was about TallOne's virginity... Later means 7 o'clock when I go to the Senior Meeting. This was a great day. I conquered a fear. I got to see my long lost Aunt (Jan). I went on a semi-date, but not date with Shawshank, and I got Air to almost prove her role in the SA movement. Thank you God! Could the day have gotten any better? This is Sexy [b]Legs[/b] signing off until probably later tonight. Song of the Day: Spandau Ballet- True/Only When You Leave, Nat King Cole- For All We Know, Nelly- N Dey Say BTW: Pictures may be posted on either the reflection page or the daily picture blog. |
| Sexy Legs Strikes Back v. 1 |
| 10.01.04 (7:39 pm) [edit] |
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I have had one the the best days of my life. It started off as probably one of the most stressful times in my life. My speech class did the sermon today. I was very nervous; so nervous that I didn't get to bed until about 1:00 (hence the previous blog to the previous) So, I got dressed around 7 and made it to school around 8 sharp. I walked in and the first person I saw was TallOne. She said, "OEwww!" and smiled. So I smiled and kept walking. Then I ran into her mother and she said the same thing. I finally went into the gym where they were setting up chairs for chapel and I saw Jury and PinkOne. They said I looked nice and junk. I then saw Stanley, who looked, "ok" and kept calling me a whore and high class trash, just because I showed my sexy legs... Anyways, nothing could have calmed me down I was so nervous. I did have my cards ready and stuff... So we then went upstairs to go to our lockers. I was walking up the steps and Tower said, "OEwww!" and I smile and kept walking and all of a sudden I ran into my beloved Air. She gasped and said, "Look at you with them legs!" I walked over to her and she said, "You look so nice and so professional!" I then sat down on the bench near her and told her how nervous I was. She then put her right hand over my forehead and prayed for peace. It's kind of funny because the title of my testimony was, "The Loving Peace of God." So I gave her my digital camera and asked her to take pictures of us while we were up there. She did :) So anyways the chapel started and I swear for about 40 minutes the younger kids were doing praise and worship (I'm guessing to stall b/c the microphones weren't working. Yet another boulder in the way.) As I was looking at them I started to cry. I'm not sure if it was the Holy Spirit or if it was me finally realizing that I am about to leave this place. Blue One went first. He started off with a prayer and a song. Then he had a 30 minute sermon and would have continued if Haynes wouldn't have interrupted him to give some guy $50 for returning a wallet. We continued. And Stan went. He is a pastor. I mean he didn't even use the microphone, but his delievery was a 9.5 in my eyes. After him went Jury. She had a sweet story about how her step father and her mother met in church. After her it was the infamous ME. The fear had subsided as soon as I had gotten up there. I said, "Good morning, my name is..." but as I was still in my sentence everyone had said goodmorning... But still I guess that funniness broke the ice a tad. As I continued, I thought about how Jan read scriptures in those ministry tapes I had. So she was my inspiration for when I read the scriptures on my cue cards. I said it like this, "I can NEVER escape your spirit! I can never escape your presence!" it was like a southern roller coaster. Also it was like my voice had changed as I began. It's like it had become more feminine and more loose. So I said my testimony and closed with, "God is not some distant being waiting to condemn you. He loves you and wants you to be in His family. Answer the call. Thank you." I don't even remember if they clapped or not, but I saw Air smiling and snaping pictures of me with my digital. So after that WONDEROUS victory I felt so relieved. Afterwards Air came up to me and said, "Now this is a senior class. You can only imagine how the graduation will be. She hugged me...and took a picture of everyone. Then hugged and kissed me again...:) ::TO BE CONTINUED IN NEXT POST:: |
| I Wonder if October Will Show Up as the Date? |
| 10.01.04 (3:09 am) [edit] |
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